Your home has been home to me my whole life. I thought about it the other day вЂ“ you were already gone, and I realized that after a while, I will have no reason to go вЂњhomeвЂќ anymore. Daddy has been gone for a long time, and now you will not be there.
I havenвЂ™t let myself cry yet. IвЂ™m afraid that when I do I wonвЂ™t stop. You probably didnвЂ™t realize just how much you mean to me or how much I love you. I always wanted your approval. I wanted to do things the way you did вЂ“ I just didnвЂ™t have the same talents you had. I envied the fact that you could crochet and sew the way you did. Nobody could throw together a better meal like you did for eleven or more people when we were all home. I didnвЂ™t try to do some things because I was afraid that I would not live up to how my Mama could do it. There are so many things that I still wanted to learn from you. We talked about your family history, and I am so angry with myself because I did not record those conversations. Now, I need to try to remember and I want to write them down so that I never forget how hard your life was and how you worked and overcame so much.
I know it is too late for me to say it to you now, I just hope that when I said, вЂњI love you, Mama.вЂќ before you got so weak that you knew it was me, and that I meant it from the bottom of my heart.
Prayers for the family
A can do in any color spray on stand was sent on November 30, 2017
In Sympathy, Karl, Elaine, Travis, & Rachel Hagler
I wonder what I'm going to do now when I need a recipe, a household hint or just want to hear your voice. I hope you know how much I loved you. I tried to be there for you, especially in the end. I know the doors sprung open wide when you reached those pearly gates of heaven greeted by so many family members that had gone before you. I hope you are up there doing all the things you loved to do - fishing, crocheting, cooking and sewing. You will always be a part of me and forever in my heart.